This week I am alone. No big deal, right? A lot of people are alone a lot of the time.
Not me, though. I have been ensconced in family life for what feels like forever.
Not so long ago, I couldn’t eat a meal without a baby crying or a toddler tantruming. I certainly couldn’t have a shower in peace. There was a time I thought I’d never sleep again or talk to my friends again.
Those years have whizzed by in a blur of noise, squabbles, children’s parties, school and food fads. There was the time small boy had a seizure, then big boy had a collapsed lung. The panics, dramas and joys all intertwined in that soap opera known as family life.
I’ve worried, fretted and aged in an attempt to keep the show on the road, keep the troops happy – or at the very least, not too traumatised…
But things change. Kids grow up and move on and our parental job description changes.
‘ Cheer them on-do their weekend laundry and provide a safe haven as and when required. ‘
Happily, I’m not yet at the point of waving them goodbye and wallpapering my empty nest. But I am getting a taster of what it might feel like…
It all started with big boy getting a job. Having finished school, he’s spending the summer washing pots to earn some money for college. So that’s big boy gone. Hostage to the dirty pot producing public. I miss him- big time, but couldn’t be more proud.
And now Ger, medium and pre-teen are off for five days. Pre-teen is doing a computer course in Cork and needs family on side to cheer him on, make his sandwiches and collect him at 3.30.
Which leaves moi and the dogs. Alone. Holding the metaphorical fort.
So how does it feel?
On the plus side:
It’s nice and peaceful.
If I clean something up- it stays clean.
Mealtimes are infinitely simpler.
Wash up is infinitely simpler.
Laundry is infinitely simpler
I can breathe freely (The house is free of deodorants, bodyspray, hairspray and perfume)
Interestingly, whilst day one in ‘alone city‘ had a bit of a holiday feeling, day two is a somewhat more sombre and restrained affair. Whilst there are no squabbles or raised voices, neither is there any silliness, no laughs, no hugs. Even the dogs look a bit subdued.
That old truism;
‘Absence makes the heart grow fonder,’ is kicking in.
Big boy has rang to check in with me five times (fall over in surprise!)
The times I have begged him to send a simple, ‘I am OK,’ text when he’s out and about. Now he’s making actual unprompted calls to see if I am OK!!
Medium and pre-teen have texted multiple messages of love and smiley faces- (aww sweet, eh?)
It transpires that they miss me, and I miss them.
And what about all those things I constantly moan about? i.e chemical sprays choking me, people dirtying things up the minute I clean them, hormones (theirs not mine, of course!) endless scheduling requests.
I’d be lying if I said they don’t matter a toss- just give me back my babies.
They do matter a bit- but not that much.
Haha, yes. So much yes. I’m still in the glow of back-to-school mornings, where once I’ve taken them, I walk the dog and feed the cats and shower leisurely, with no one following me, filling my head with tidbits, eating as I please, cooking for ONE. So nice. But when I come home later, I will be glad for the company, and the hugs and kisses, and people following me around, filling my head with tidbits. 🙂
Enjoy the silence. Depeche Mode even 😉 lol
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I know exactly what you mean- all things in moderation, especially aloneness!
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You described very well that mixed feeling of pride and being lost at the same time. I wish your sons could give a lesson to my #2 though. He’s still brutal about messaging!!
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Thanks Joanne. I think kids are all the same about messaging. They just don’t get how much we worry about them!
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My oldest is really good about that stuff. He’s pretty intuitive and *gets* it. My youngest though …. sigh.
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Love this….I have every age bracket in my house. 6 children from 6 years old – 22. The 22 year old has flown the nest and my 19 year old is gone often with school and social activities. I find as they get older I enjoy their company in a different kind of way I wasn’t expecting. It’s so fun just hanging out with my young adults. 😉
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Oh my, Melissa- you have a busy house! It’s lovely that relationships between parents and children grow over time. I’m looking forward to a time when my teens find me less of an embarrassment to them!
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Absence makes the heart fond, as they say… Still, enjoy your ‘me’ time, it’s not for long ❤️
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Thanks- I will!
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I’ve been an empty nester for several years now. Your post reminded me of how much families are connected, even when they aren’t all living in the same home anymore. The texts I look forward to now are pictures of my new grandson and my not-so-new granddaughters (ages 7 and 11), but I have to admit that I enjoy those texts (and sometimes emails) as much because of my children (sons) who send them as I do for the look at my grandchildren. 🙂
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How lovely to have grandchildren to brighten the day. What a joy!
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A lady alone. In a lonely cottage on a windswept hillside in a forgotten Kerry valley…Sounds like the start of a horror film. Directed by young Joe perhaps? The bad guys? Leprechauns! NAZI leprechauns! You’ll be swept!
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No worries, John. The resident ghosts would see off any marauders in a flash! Plus, I have a German Shepherd (albeit, one who is soft as butter, liable to shower a marauder with kisses!) She really looks the part, though.
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In a lonely cottage on a windswept hillside in a forgotten Kerry valley…there lived a lady (alone)
John this is not the start of a horror movie- it sounds more like the start of the hobbit!
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I’m watching the DVD of the last of the three Hobbitt movies at the moment. I could just imagine the Battle Of The Five Armies taking place in the Lauragh valley!
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I totally agree- but I hope not. Sounds dangerous.
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Alone has its merits, no doubt about it, but there was a reason we had babies, and it wasn’t so we could be alone! lol
I hope they’re all home soon with extra “I’ve missed you, mom!” hugs. 🙂
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Your are so right. Day Four and home alone is wearing very thin. Can’t wait to see them tomorrow!
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Homecomings can be so wonderful!
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Marie, I’m happy the family will return soon. The potential horror movie that is now playing out in my head (thank you, John) needs to have a happy ending! I’m glad that ferocious dog is by your side.Take care out there in Kerry! Clare
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Thanks Clare- you’re very sweet. Even my ferocious dog is missing them. She’s hanging around me all day looking very dejected. I am not half as much fun as the kids!
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I feel your pain 😦 . I have been there. I must say, I have become now quite used to the ‘alone’ phase, at first I battled, but as the ‘alone’ time progressed I got used to it (that being as well with hubby travelling quite a lot) Now, I miss my daughter if I don’t see her for a day. 🙂
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Thanks Lynne. Lovely that you get to see a lot of your daughter. It’s so good to be in touch with family.
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I stay alone a lot, and love it. But I hear you.
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I’m sure it is conducive to getting some writing work done! Good to have some peace and quiet to concentrate!
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Oh, yes my daughter is 24 still at home but probably she will start her own life soon and leave my home – I’m wondering about taking a dog. I even asked my cat if he wanted a dog 😉 but he said nothing – which, I suppose, means that decision is mine ;-P
All in all, I’m a little bit frightened of that silence you wrote about…
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I think we’re all the same. The silence is a bit daunting-but I like to think the kids will come home often and visit. In the meantime- a dog is a great idea! My two follow me everywhere!
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I’m not sure what i would do if i was alone like that. I think I’d get bored very quickly. Is your oldest living away from home for work?
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He left school this June and is working in a hotel for the Summer. The hours are crazy so we don’t see much of him. I do find I am missing him alot. Even though he’s 19, he’s a great hugger!
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LOL You gotta love a great hugger. Cold for him in working so hard.
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OH Chez Shea, this is a sweet post. I really empathize with what you’re saying. Sending you many blessings and for your sons too! Amazing that one of them called so many times. 🙂 That put a smile on my face. Smiles!
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Thanks so much, that is lovely.
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Yes – it’s lovely to have a ‘break’ and enjoy it while it lasts as they’ll all come tumbling back very soon with their ‘little’ pile of dirty washing… and for me 2 gorgeous granddaughters to ‘fill the empty nest’ once more.. x
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Thank so much for dropping by and for you lovely comment.
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You’re welcome – it was a pleasure! x
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I’m taking a break too, after a fashion. In hospital, the break being in my lower back, though not as bad as it sounds. I’m also getting my pancreas, kidneys, and bowels checked out. My car passed its pre-NCT this week but I’d need a new chassis if I were a car. Unfortunately, full body transplants aren’t available yet so I’ll have to make do with repairs.
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Oh no- I’m so sorry to hear that John. That sounds so painful. Really hope that everything goes well with all the checks and that you get some good repairs!
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Incidentally, my room overlooks a carpark where a 65 million euro extension to the hospital is to be built. Being sick is an expensive activity!
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Oh my goodness-65 million is a mind boggling sum. But good it’s going to be spent on a hospital and not on expense accounts for bankers…..
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A consultant told me it was costed at 80 million euros during the last boom, and 50 million euros after the crash. It’s the Bons by the way, not a bad hospital apart from the WORST COFFEE IN THE WORLD! There, I’ve got that off my chest…
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Well that’s just not OK!! How can you be expected to get better if the coffee’s bad! tut, tut.
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This is so beautiful. Your post depicts the mixed feelings experienced by parents when their offspring are finding their way out of the nest. I am glad that they are concerned and responsible enough to reach out and know how your are coping without them. I guess it’s all part of the lifecycle and we just have to get used to it one way or the other.
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Thanks so much, Jacqueline. You’re so right- watching them grow up is part of life, and it’s a new challenge for us mums to take a step back.
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Just lovely
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